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04:21 pm: St Augestine sucks. obviously because this is the first tim ive written i this in a while. But i guess I have a wholelot on my mind.
Im just trying to make it through all of this while protecting myself and my emotions. I dont know if ive ever gone through this much emotional pain. Things will feel so good and then an instant later they will feel so horrible. It isnt right to let Craig run my emotions and that is what im trying to not let happen. He is just really fucked up in the head. He loves huring people,especially me..the person who he claimed is the only person that matters in his life. He is going nowhere in his life. He is a liar, a user, fake, and a fucking ass hole. Now that ive goten all of that off my chest..

This past month has been a lot more fun thAN i wouldhave thought it to be. There are plenty of male prospects. I thought i kinda liked jack(work) but i definitely dont. i told him a few days ago thaT we are just friends and to stop telling people that he is my boyfriend. He is still calling me way too much. Sky..lol.sky is straight. Sky was a good time. Id have a good time wih sky again. Ive been hanging out with eddie and dan a lot and they are mad straight. eddie called me today to wish me a merry christmas. it sucks that theyre in pennsylvania. Mike D will be home monday. everyone is pretty excited about that. My friend Kevin is throwing a New Years Party which will be a good time but i wanna eat some beans on new years. or whenever.
Chilling in St Augestine sucks except for the fact that me and my bro have an ass load of the craziest chronic ive smoked in months.
I got in to FSU and USF!! Im going somewhere in my life and that is awesome. Me and Sara will soon b moving to Vanouver and starting our practices there. fucking with people's heads and shit, smoking herb on lunch breaks. It is going to be really hard to get through the rest of the school year bcause im just so sick of this shit. I want to be on my own an go to school and party my ass off and meet new people. I just wish i could go now.
I thought of giving Craig a cALL to wish him a merry christmas but i think that i a bad ideaa. He doesnt know how to express his true emotions therefore it will come out as anger and assholeness like everytime we talk. And honestly i dont even want to speak to him because he brings nothing good to this world.
Ima go smoke a cig and call Sara.

Back to work on monday..s ima have to stop avoiding jack.

omg m so horny..i think this is the longest ive gone without sex in 2 years.wow.

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From:coeray
Date:December 25th, 2004 10:40 pm (UTC)

yaay

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congrats kara! i applied for fsu haven't head back. do you know where you're gunna go yet?

I miss hanging out with you. We need to do that.

<3 Corey
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From:softbun
Date:December 26th, 2004 06:18 am (UTC)
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omg.
It isnt right to let Craig run my emotions and that is what im trying to not let happen. He is just really fucked up in the head. He loves huring people,especially me..the person who he claimed is the only person that matters in his life. He is going nowhere in his life. He is a liar, a user, fake, and a fucking ass hole. Now that ive goten all of that off my chest..

i never talk to you anymore but i just gotta say im totally having exactly the same problem with someone i was/am involved with.
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